don't know what happened to me, which clearly made me stop and say, you know what, i don't, but that doesn't justify what you did, but i will take that and try and consider it and understand it and make it work for the better of both of us and this relationship as father and son. >> is he proud of you for what you have achieved? >> i think so because in any situation he's in tears, everything that happens, he cries. every -- >> guilt, you think? >> that's exactly what i thought. early on, every award, every situation, every time you see an ad for one of my films or come to a show, there would be tears. i always thought it was tremendous guilt. >> has he ever said sorry? >> no, he hasn't. he hasn't. >> would you like him to? >> at this point, i don't know if it matters. i really don't know if it matters because i really have, i really am done with it. i don't know if it matters if he said he was sorry. >> by contrast, you have this amazing relationship with your mother, a fabulous woman, and sadly died a few years ago, but tell me about her.